Mzvee as known by now took a break from the music scene for a while and is back this year to continue from where she left off.
But according to her, since she revealed that she got depression, some have said that she may have exaggerated the whole story.
She says this is because most Ghanaians are ignorant about depression.
“So I was scared of coming out with it. And on a few shows I’ve been on recently, some people will send messages and say oh we think she’s exaggerating and it’s the reason I didn’t want to come out to say it” she explained.
The ‘Natural Girl’ singer noted that she was scared to come out to even talk about what she has been through because the Ghanaian culture is one that does not understand depression.
“I was even scared to come out to talk about it because we’re in a culture where we don’t even understand what depression is. In our Ghanaian culture, you can’t go and say you’re depressed. You can say you’re sad and then you have to tune your mind the next minute and do what you’re doing.
Speaking to Dziffa on Citi TV’s Breakfast Daily, she has finally opened up on her dark days leading to the hiatus.
When Dzifa asked her at what point she knew that what she was feeling was depression, she said:
“I was just deeply deeply deeply sad all the time, very angry all the time. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I didn’t want to smile at anyone. I wanted to be home 24/7. I didn’t want to pick up my phone. I didn’t want to talk. None of that. I was just really away from everybody. I just wanted to go away from everybody.
“And depression gets to a point where you don’t even know what in particular is worrying you. It’s just so many things you’ve harboured for so long that you explode at a point and you don’t even know why but you’re just sad. You’re just depressed. It’s so many things going on in your head” she revealed.
Finally deciding to walk away from music, she said was not an easy decision to make but she knew for long everything was not right with her.
“I knew this in 2018. I knew it like middle part 2018. I knew it from my birthday 2018. I’ve always known that I was not okay but 2018 was like the height of everything.
“It was tough. It was scary actually because this has been my life really seven years straight. I’ve not known anything else but music so saying I was just going to stop music and just bye-bye, it was a bit scary. But at the end of the day, 2018 was when I realized [you know what], this is scary but if you don’t get your mind right, one day you’ll be on stage and be doing some moves and people won’t understand. I didn’t want to go crazy in front of my fans so I just had to take time off because depression can lead to death really.”
Although she went on a soul searching break to get things right, she was not sure she was going to get back and pick up from where she left it.
“I didn’t even think I was going to come back to music” she noted.
She also added that she had her family and so she did not feel alone. Her mom cried and prayed with her even when she was not sure what was wrong with her daughter.
She, therefore, entreats friends and family avail themselves to others, provide a shoulder and strengthen them when they sense things are not alright with them.
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By: Hajia Lamy Gates | ghanaweekend.com
